Single Mom Seminarian

OK, it’s late, wayyyyyy past my bedtime, and you know we all have to be at church in the morning (oops, it is morning); but I had to tell ya about the blog.¬† Yep, I did it again, I have re-created myself once again on the blogsphere; oh the many lives of me ūüôā¬† But seriously,¬† as you all know, I am starting seminary this fall, and wanted to create a place where I can journal the experience, and perhaps attempt to connect with some other single moms who may be in seminary, or may jsut be single moms,¬† Anyhow, I will be keeping this blog too; not sure how it’s all gonna work, but we’ll figure it out as we go kids! So I hope you’ll keep tabs on me, where ever that may be, and I’ll do my best to pop in over at your blogs from time to time as well.¬† God bless and see¬† ya round the blogshere ūüôā¬†

P.S. opps, blog address wold help, aye?¬† Yep, that’s me

Today is the day! On my way to Asbury Theological Seminary!

It’s been a really emotional day for me.¬† Today, I got the email that I have been praying and waiting for.¬† It’s been a long year for me.¬† I have had a season of God taking me out of the working world and make me literally sit, and¬†give Him my full attention.¬† It’s been a time of testing and trials, but also of growth, learned obedience and surrender.¬† I remember getting to the end of my rope and literally crying out to God saying “fine, have your way, I surrender it all, completely”.¬† “I’m not going back to O.K. and what ever your going to do, you better just make that really clear, b/c I sure don’t know what I’m trying to achieve in my own strength”.¬† That cry began to take me to new levels in my faith, a deeper relationship with God where His Holy Spirit would fall on me in such a way that I have never been the same since.¬† Talk about sanctification, and a driving desire to attain holiness!¬† That is how I was starting to feel.¬† After I settled down my soul a bit, and got my bearing back on the ground, I continued to be stretched and learn more about who I was in Christ and who I am desiring to become more like every day with a burning, intimate passion.¬† I don’t know exactly when it happened, but at one point I remember God specifically nudging me with the idea of attending seminary.¬† “Surely not I Lord” I thought, “I have no Biblical training, and look at all the ministries that I can’t even get off the ground, what good am I?¬† I don’t know enough to do this.”¬† But as soon as I said this, it seemed as though He brought peace and said to me “Robin, Go, I am sending you to prepare you, I have seen your continued¬†surrender and obedience, and I know that your haert¬†desires after me alone; I’ll equip you with strength and meet every need, I have a plan and¬†purpose for you and will show more¬†that¬†to you as you walk with me;¬†continue to obey in this because I am with you.”¬† O.K., maybe that’s not word for word, but it’s pretty darn close.¬† Long story short, I started looking into seminaries, and visited some during my Easter break.¬† I studied their websites, statements of faith, and accessibility to my needs.¬† After choosing 3 different seminaries with 3 completely different backgrounds, I knew that I needed to dig deeper and really understand what I believed.¬† Although my theological base is still being formed, I truly feel that I align the most with Asbury Theological Seminary, which is based in the Wesleyan-Armenian tradition.¬† Perhaps it is b/c my current and previous pastors have attended and it has shaped their teaching and my learning, or perhaps it is also¬†part of my own experiences¬†of faith.¬† All I know, is that even before I started to truly understand the diffenreces¬†in these 3 institutions, God had always given me a sense of peace about attending Asbury.¬† With their¬†virtual program and campuses in Orlando and KY, I know that I am going to be getting a top¬†notch education.¬† ¬†So I just had to share the joy because it is a new beginning,¬† and who knows what God is up to, but I’ll be sure to keep you posted as I continue to live surrendered and learn to worship Him with my life of obedience.¬† God Bless, and see you on the Adventure!

Baby Steps….To Seminary

Well, I knew this post would come sooner or later, and so here it is.¬† For most people who know me, or see me on facebook, it has been made public knowledge that I strongly have felt the call to attend¬†seminary.¬† For me, this was not an overnight realization, although sometimes it could look or feel that way.¬† Many know that I’ve been unemployed for the past year, which, like everything else has been a blessing and a curse.¬† “I’ve grown allot with Jesus”, now seems like an understatement, but I’ve also been humbled in many forms, and had my share of holy temper tantrums that I freely shared with anyone within PC distance.¬†¬†I’ve also accomplished allot; such as well, my undergrad. for one, slowly learning to organize my time and my life better, and learn the never-ending art of daily surrender to the Father.¬† If you’ve been reading this blog at all, you know that I am a very passionate and very open person who wants to be used by God in big ways; but as I type that last sentence, I am reminded that His ways are always backwards from ours, and so I tread that line with a bit of Holy fear and submission to His will on my life.¬† I guess for me I feel¬†that this is the next step in many¬†things God.¬† It will be part learning¬†in allot of different areas of the Christian¬†Church, and History,¬† part continued sanctification of me, and part building relationships with classmates and peers who¬†will end up shaping me into who God desires me to be.¬† As I went through¬†the application process, I had to write an entrance essay and¬†provide pastoral references.¬† Easy enough, but for me,¬†this was a huge affirmation in the process.¬† As I mentioned, many of my “holy temper tantrums”¬†got thrown in¬†the face of my pastors¬†and some¬†of my¬†church leaders.¬† It was a way for me to deal with my hurts, my concerns, my growth, and just whatever God has been doing with me.¬† I say this, b/c I¬†shared some really hard stuff with them, and I felt that through it all; this call on my life¬†would be the stopping point if their ever was one; but instead my news seemed to be welcoming.¬† Perhaps they¬†thought I was up for the challenge, or needed to be stretched in this direction, but perhaps more than that,¬†they understood the call more than I did.¬† I am ever grateful for them, especially my senoir pastor who has been a huge help in helping me understand¬†this call stuff better.¬† ¬†Along with the excitement of hearing this very clear call on my life, it’s met with lots of unknowns for what God is up to in it all, but as I was reminded today by an awesome blog post at Going to Seminary :¬† that even great people like Moses doubted when He heard the call from God to lead the people out of Egypt.¬† God said to Him, as He does me “Go, for I will be with you”.¬† So that is really what I needed to hear today; that even though I don’t feel sufficient in my own strength, that I don’t feel that I have enough Bible knowledge, experience, or any other measure I may be looking at, the bottom line is that God has called, so I will obey.¬† What He has started in me, He will finish and¬† it’s good to know that my reluctancy and fears are well known among seminary students at all levels.¬†¬† Thank you Jesus for once again using others in my path to help remind me that¬†everything is going to be O.K. and that you will work out everything for your perfect will as I continue to surrender and obey to you.¬† I love you Lord!¬† Just¬†had to say it again!