Have you ever wondered what direction in life to take? I think we all have. We’ve looked at the paths before us and wondered which one to go down. In learning to be led by Jesus, there are two ways that has directed me.
Sometimes He lets you choose. I remember when I started seminary. I started on-line at one seminary, and absolutely loved the experience. But then as God lead me into a denomination, he began to open up doors to attend their seminary. After talking to a friend who attended both, and weighing different options like curriculum and cost, I took a deep breath and made my move. I had peace, because I felt that God was not only opening up doors in this direction, but He had given me peace to move forward. Now several years later, believing that God has lead me out of this denomination for more of what He wants to do with me, I must once again place my hand in his trusting that He has a bigger plan that I can’t fully see. This is where I am learning to trust.
Sometimes He asks you to trust: So as I sat with God this morning, trying to determine the direction that he is leading, I have few answers. Living in the tension of learning to be content with where God has me, and wanting to become all God has called me to be, there are somethings I just can’t make happen. Trying to shut off all the shouting voices that vie for my attention in my head to make my life count, to be perseverant and use the gifts, talents, and desires God has given me, I end up back at His feet; reminding Him of the times that I have followed His voice’s leading. Then I remind myself, how that has always brought me a sense of inner peace, growing my trust as I have taken steps of faith to follow him on this unconventional journey. This is what I need right now- His peace once again to fill me.
The unconventional journey with Jesus is something that I think we as Christians need to start to expect. When we decide to step out and follow Jesus, learning to hear his voice and be lead by his spirit, things won’t go as we think they should. We can see this as we watch the disciples; as they follow Jesus, they begin to get wrecked with fear, insecurity, and doubts along the way; asking questions and getting unconventional answers from their leader. Same is true with many of the stories and characters of the Old Testament. So why do we think it should be any different for us? I even had a pastor friend pretty much prophesy this over me several years ago when he told me to look at my ministry being something that was unconventional; and as I have watched God lead me, this is exactly what He has been doing.
We live in a society that tell us to dream about what you want to be when you grow up; then go to school and become that person. We’re told if you follow steps A,B, and C; you will get to D- your destination. But I can tell you after 20 years of education under my belt, trying to make that formula work, it doesn’t always work that way. Even with my seminary degree, I was so sure it was going to lead me right into the arms of pastoral ministry, and it still might, but it won’t look anything like I thought, because that’s just the way God works. Keeping the twists and turns coming, so that we remain dependent on Him, desperate for Him to show us the road ahead.
So today, as I have thought on these things, and once again surrender to His ways, I was reminded of some Psalms that I am compiling. They are Psalms crying out for God to lead me, that I just might learn to trust Him even more. As you read the prayer below, may it become your prayer as well, into whatever God has waiting for you ahead as you follow him on this unconventional journey. Blessings, Robin
Show me your ways, Lord
Open my eyes that I might see.
Teach me your paths,
That I might have knowledge
and good judgment.
Cause me to understand,and
Guide me in your truth,
Direct my footsteps according to your word
For you have been my help.
I place all my trust in you
because you are good,
And you have good plans for me,
Plans to proser me and to give me a hope and a future.
Search me and know my heart.
Test me and know my anxious thoughts.
Show me the way to go, for to you I entrust my life
And may your good spirit lead me on level ground
To bring you glory, and honor and praise,
For ever and ever. Amen.