The Power of Choice

This morning God asked me if I’d be so kind to attempt to share some of the things He brought me through. He reminded me that yes, it’s awesome to overcome and that is what He wants for all of us, but we all have valley’s that we go through that shape and grow us. One of mine was trying to find my significance in other people. Yes, I knew Christ alone could fill the void, but I kept going around mountains of hurt, and putting way too many unrealistic expectations on others. I couldn’t understand why people even at church seemed cold and distant at times, until one day God showed me that we are all dealing with stuff in life. I was angry and bitter, and asked why church was such a messed up place. He told me that we’re all messy, broken people; and when God heals us we need to learn to take that healing forth and help others where they are; but we also need to come to a place of knowing our true significance and security is in Christ alone, and that too is a journey. So how did I get from point A to B? Well, it’s a journey. God used circumstances, failures, false expectations, misunderstanding, and lack of affirmations from others, just to name a few. Every time I went through hardship, it beckoned me to the cross and the feet of Jesus to surrender so much of what I couldn’t even understand. Slowly, but surely, and I mean slowly, God began to show me that he was for me, that he did love me, and that he does have plans and purposes for my life. There were many times of doubt, and feeling like I was taking 2 steps forward and one step back, but that was still a step in the right direction. I’d try and read the Bible for my own good, but so many times it felt so futile, and being in seminary, knowing that I’m suppose to know this, made me feel even smaller. I’d doubt my call at times, wondering why God put me in seminary when I felt so insignificant. Really Lord, what are you going to do with me? Prayers seemed like vapors at times, just vanishing into thin air, never to be seen again. But through it all, I chose to persevere. It wasn’t easy, but I continued to push forward. I learned what worked for me in the fight. What were my weapons? Surely I knew the Word of God was stronger than a two-edged sword, but it didn’t seem to be working, so one thing that always helps me is putting on worship music; so I loaded my iPod up with tons of worship music and began to fight. At other times, God would give me a nugget here or there in his truth, or because I knew I needed to fight the battle, I’d intentionally choose to seek out positive influences, such as reading Christian books or listening to sermons or other Christian programs I liked online or on TV. When I did have little victories, I’d be sure to share them, whether on the blog, facebook, with my prayer partner, my mentor, or other people I knew. I didn’t do it to sound smug with myself, but this was victory and it was mine, and I knew that if I declared it, it would make me stronger. I also learned through doing this, that not everyone is going to get where you are, not everyone is going to share in your “victory dance”. This easily led once again to those feelings of insecurity and false expectations, feeling like I once again took a step back, but again, I made the choice to press on. Yes, there were times that God had me sit with myself, when nobody understood, when it seemed like I was all alone, but it was in these times He would show me how to rely on him, it was in these times that I would begin to hear him speak to me in His Word more and more. I guess what I am trying to say is that the journey is just that, a journey. We have our mountaintops and we have our valleys. They all exist to grow us into Christlikeness, allowing us to be there for others who have gone through similar things. None of us get to “arrive” on this side of heaven, and that has been another lesson that I have had to learn. Being a seminary student has helped me to see so much, yet it has also showed me how little I really do know. It’s a very humbling journey to say the least, but one that I am so grateful that God has put me on, and one I know will produce kingdom fruit. I guess dear reader; just know that you are not alone in your circumstances. Life is hard, and I for one do not want to minimize that fact. But we are more than conquerors; we have so many beautiful truths of the Bible to bring us hope and healing. Our churches aren’t perfect; they are full of hurting and imperfect people, I being one of them. The journey may seem long but God is with us! His Word is true and He loves us more than we will ever know. I could sit here and quote passages, but I don’t know what that would do for you. It will have to be your choice to seek the goodness of God, and it will have to be you who will chose to trust. You alone will have to say “Yes Lord, I believe in who you say you are in The Bible”, I believe that you are good, and even though you allow sin in the world. You will have to find and choose your weapons that will help you fight! I was reminded of the power of choice today as I continue to read through the Book of John. In John 12:34-36 Jesus speaks to the crowd, telling them to” walk in the light while you can. Then you won’t be caught walking blindly in the dark. v.36. “have faith in the light while it is with you and you will be children of the light.” Here Jesus was talking about himself, and how he’d not be with them in a little while. Sometimes it feels as though God is not with us, but we are to exercise the faith that we do have, by remembering all that he has done in our lives; to think on those things, so that we can believe in the times when He doesn’t seem close by. This is what Jesus was trying to tell the people, and what He tries to tell us today. Remember what you have gone through and remember what I brought you out of. It’s the same story from the Old Testament when the Lord brought the people out of the desert into the promise land. In v. 37 it states “He had worked a lot of miracles among the people, but they were still not willing to have faith in him.”  Hmm, sounds like another opportunity to choose.  Are we willing to believe God when we see him do mighty things in our lives? Will we choose to remember what He has done for us, or are we going to just shrug it off as luck or chance, or even something that didn’t seem “big enough to count?”;  and are we going to go one step further and believe when we don’t see him working?, when he’s behind the scenes doing something bigger than we could ever imagine?.  That takes faitih.   The Choice is yours; Choose Life, Choose to Believe, and fight the battle, never letting the devil get a foothold.   We are reminded in Deuteronomy 30:19 again about choice:   It is what He wants for all of us! “Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live!     I pray you forth in the life and Name of  Jesus, Amen!

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4 thoughts on “The Power of Choice

  1. Thankyou SO much for this post…….it couldnt have come at a more timely moment on my journey. I am at that point where i am having to choose to fight the good fight and it isnt easy but im determined to endure. I am battling alot of confusion and my focus has drifted but perservere i must. Thankyou for sharing…God bless xxx

  2. You are very welcome, and I am so glad to hear you persevere forward! I pray that God will continue to give you strength, and that you will not give up! I am praying that God will illuminate His Word to you and that you will hear his loving voice speak to you, tellling you that He is nearby. I pray for your to experience his love in a new way that you will be renewed in your journey. You are not alone, we all have been there, and I am sure we’ll be there again along the way. May God send you others in your life to walk beside you and see you through to the other side. I pray you forth in Jesus Name, Amen!

  3. Testimony of Obedience and Choice!!! :

    I just wanted to let you know how cool it is to be used of God! I had wrote my blog post today, and wasn’t gonna post it on Facebook b/c , well, sometime I still hang on to those insecuries of what others will think, (I know, yuk), but God nudged me and said, “Robin, I asked you to write that, so why don’t you share it, maybe it will help someone”. So I did get a response from a facebook user who was blessed and encouraged by it, and who God nudged me to pray for too. She may of never read it if I didn’t CHOOSE to OBEY and post it on my fb page 🙂 It’s all for His glory, it’s just cool to see. I love when I make the right choice, I think He does too! Be blessed and encouraged!

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