I was debating whether I was going to post a blog this week b/c I’ve been trying to focus my attention on my math final, but as God continues to grow and stretch me, I figured that I might as well. I really got my butt convicted in a pretty powerful way after I walked out of church on Sunday. All this time, as I have been growing and sharing, it occurred to me how often I try and get people to grab a hold of what God is teaching me as if it is the only thing that matters. Somewhere along the way I think I lost the virtue of wisdom, or at least I tossed it aside for my own selfish gain. I had no idea the amount of pride that I’ve been carrying around, it really made me upset to see how much of it there was. I think sometimes I just loose focus. I get so busy in whatever it is that I am doing or learning that the bigger vision or lesson that God is trying to show and teach me gets snuffed out somehow when I start filling my head with more information. In James 1:5 it says “if any ofyou lacks wisdom, he should ask God who gives generously to al without finding fault, and it will be given to him.” I think I need to remember to ask God for wisdom. I know when I pray I really need to start getting more specific with my prayers and not just to ask God to take over but to start pin-pointing some areas that I really need help on. So may I encourage all of us to pray for wisdom in ever area of our lives and let us not be quick to judge where others are in their walk with God. It’s God that transforms us, and I know for me, God continually reminds me to just stop and love people where they are. Many times for me this is not easy, but it’s another prayer that I am learning to give to God; to have God help me with my selfishness and learn to love people more unconditionally. I think God would be proud of me today for feeling led to point out my shortcoming, because we all have them, and it’s not always easy to share the hard parts, but I know we need to share our struggles too b/c we all face them. One of my life verses that God has been continually placing in my head and on my heart is Jer 29:11 (NIV) “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” It’s funny b/c my pastor had actually quoted this on Sunday and it brought me back to some basic truths that I need to remember. Then, I heard this song from Leeland that has this same verse in it and I knew God was trying to remind me that He’s in control. So I guess the point of saying all this is that I have been reminded that I can’t get too far ahead of myeslf and what God is trying to say and do with me. So many times, God just fills my head with so much info, but now I am learning to ask Him what He wants me to do with it, instead of just trying to give every one my spin on it. So Father God, I thank you for teaching me wisodm this week and reminding me that just because I am gaining understanding in a certain way, I need to go to you first and seek your wisdom on how to understand and use it. God help me to love people more where ever you have them and help me to accept where you have me too. Thank you for never letting go and thank you for always convictiing us when we need it. Help us to not forget the things that you teach us Lord. We get so full of knowledge that we don’t know what to do with it all sometimes, so help us to learn what you want us to learn and help us to love like you love. We need you Lord in everything we do; thank you for Loving us more than we will ever know and thank you for giving us a hope and a future; help us to endure the race you have set us upon and always put our trust in you,even when we can’t always see what you are up to. Amen.