This morning as I spent time with God I found myself crying out and wondering why He has placed this burden of The Church, His Bride, so deeply on my heart. I mean really Lord, yes, I want to work for you and do your will, but man this is a bit more than I bargained for! I can’t tell you the amount of anguish that He has placed on my heart. I even began to picture myself like Jesus; kneeling in the garden, asking God to take this cup, but also wanting more than anything else, to fulfill His will. That’s where my heart is, that’s how deeply this affects me. I didn’t ask for this ya know; I could have blown on with life just fine, but when I gave Him my heart, I promised I wouldn’t take it back, and so here we are, burdened with the will of The Father on my life. I know it’s His battle, but I’m His instrument; and I know there are allot of “me’s” out there; and I pray for God to bring us together so we can be stronger and shine brighter together. So with that, I asked God to give me a word today, because I know His power works through us, but man it can overwhelm my soul so quickly. I sat and meditated on Psalm 62 today, and really let the words sink in. I’m not going to break it all down today and how it spoke to me, but just invite you to read it and ask God to let it speak to your heart too.
Psalm 62 (Amplified Bible)
To the Chief Musician; according to Jeduthun [Ethan, the noted musician, founder of an official musical family]. A Psalm of David.
1FOR GOD alone my soul waits in silence; from Him comes my salvation. 2He only is my Rock and my Salvation, my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be greatly moved.
3How long will you set upon a man that you may slay him, all of you, like a leaning wall, like a tottering fence?
4They only consult to cast him down from his height [to dishonor him]; they delight in lies. They bless with their mouths, but they curse inwardly. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!
5My soul, wait only upon God and silently submit to Him; for my hope and expectation are from Him.
6He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved.
7With God rests my salvation and my glory; He is my Rock of unyielding strength and impenetrable hardness, and my refuge is in God!
8Trust in, lean on, rely on, and have confidence in Him at all times, you people; pour out your hearts before Him. God is a refuge for us (a fortress and a high tower). Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!
9Men of low degree [in the social scale] are emptiness (futility, a breath) and men of high degree [in the same scale] are a lie and a delusion. In the balances they go up; they are together lighter than a breath.
10Trust not in and rely confidently not on extortion and oppression, and do not vainly hope in robbery; if riches increase, set not your heart on them.
11God has spoken once, twice have I heard this: that power belongs to God.
12Also to You, O Lord, belong mercy and loving-kindness, for You render to every man according to his work.(A)