Allot of people, myself included, claim the saying, “everything happens for a reason”. It’s not so much a mystical idea, but for those who believe it, I believe have some level of reverence for God; that He is sovereign and always in control, able to see everything when we can only see a micro-snap shot, and working out everything in the world for His Glory. Last March, I was let go from a job that I was only less than 2 weeks into. I’ve been unemployed for all that time. Many would be quick to judge, finger point or see me as lazy, but the bottom line is that they don’t have a clue about why that had to happen; but I finally did. I wrote most of this past year here on my blog, so I won’t repeat myself; and as I’ve grown, I’ve learned surrender, and many, many lessons along the way. It has become clear to me that indeed God uses all our circumstances to teach us, grow us, and to ultimately be glorified. As Ive tried to understand more and more, God has place a specific burden on my heart. It is a burden of the church, the true body of Christ, His bride; radiantly white and beaming with purity before Him. I now can see that my struggles and hardships that I have faced in the church as a child, and as a born-again believer have all occurred to teach me, and purify me with Holy understanding. There is much I could say about this, as the passion rises at a constant level, but I lay it at the foot of the cross where I know God will deal with it. A little while ago, I responded to a Church Wisperer, who wrote a blog post titled “The Church Jesus expects to find” . I encourage you to read it, but also wanted to share my response, which is a huge part of what God has been placing on my heart lately. May it convict you in such a way to begin fearing our Holy Lord again.
I really feel, and God’s been pointing this out to me allot lately, that our churches are a mess and we are so divided, and the Bride is ugly because we have truly lost our first love, Jesus Christ. Not only that, but we have forgotten the sovereignty of God. We don’t fear Him, We don’t see Him for who He really is. We don’t bow down before Him in reverence, in true surrender, in true repentance, in true gratitude and worship. I think knowing our church history is important, and it’s something God is showing me more and more. I think knowing why you believe what you do is important; Anyone can call themselves a Christian and say “Yes, Jesus saved my life”; but it goes so much deeper than that. Do you truly get that He was a living sacrifice, and does that change the way you worship and adore Him? Do you love Him for not only who He is, but what He has truly done! Where is the fear and trembling that we are suppose to have? Look at Moses, Look at Job, Abraham… They trusted and obeyed in such powerful ways that God Moved! God does not move today because People don’t want to think too deeply; they leave interpreting and understanding the Bible up to the pastors; church leaders are running around trying to follow every church fad and best seller church success story and be the Purpose Driven Church for All; but this is not what God commands; this is what the apostles warned of. I fear we will never see unity in our church’s, we will never see our prayer meetings overflowing, we will never see our numbers in whatever area of the church that we are dealing with UNTIL we remember How HOLY OUR GOD IS! WE ARE TO BOW DOWN IN WORSHIP WE ARE TO TREMBLE TO THE FOOT OF THE CROSS! That is gone in today’s churches, and unitl it get’s back in us, even starting on an individual level, I really don’t see our churches changing in revivalist ways. God said “If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.” God’s not moving b/c we’re not truly doing what He commands us. We just try and spin The Word of God to whatever is gonna fill the seats, or whatever we think will make us better leaders, but we are so way off! I’ll admit, I don’t know squat about church leadership, and I can send my pastors and others tons of info on everything I find, but ultimately it all gets put at the foot of the cross in hope and trust. The more God shows me and teaches me, the more this exact messege keeps getting pounded in my head. I don’t know why God has placed this on my heart so deeply, but I know He is going to use it in some way. In the meantime I will continue to fear and tremble, I will continue to show people that I am a living testimony of obedience and true surrended by following what God commands of us in His Word as He teaches me.