The more my heart is burning to know more of God, and have more of His heart, I have been recently reminded of a very important aspect of living out our faith for Christ; that as much joy and fellowship our faith can bring us with God and our fellow believers, it is also often times lonely. It is in these recent times of solitude for me, that I learn to lean my whole self onto Christ alone, learning over and over again that He is always and ever will be more than enough for me. A month or so back, our pastor did a sermon series called “foundations of ministry-helping people”. Ministry is nothing more than loving, serving, and healing people in the name of Jesus. As a person who has a huge heart for serving, and jumping on every opportunity that I get, this really spoke to me. As I helped a friend lead a girls retreat for some local teenagers recently, my heart was so engaged, and I knew God was affirming some things in my life through serving here as well. But there are many times when God tucks our gifts away and lets us really get close to Him in our solitude. As it turns out, this is happening to me on a daily basis in my current season. As I try my best to reach out to family and friends for Jesus, I am quick to remember how Jesus must have felt in the garden as He prayed and his very own disciples fell asleep on him. Even though He was surrounded by His very own circle of friends, he was left to just trust God, hear God, and wait on God, while everyone else did what they wanted, which was sleep. As I serve and show love to others there is no one standing there affirming what I am doing, nor does there need to be, but we as humans are wired for relationships; which may or may not always be there in the ways that we feel that they should or need to be. I find this in my some of my Christian cirlces, not all of them, but some. I have come to better accept people where they are in their spiritual walk, but often find myself alone, trusting God, and once again relying on Him that He is more than enough. I am blessed to have some Christian brothers and sisters who take the time and communicate with me, but then there are times there too, when people don’t always respond as quickly as we would like, or they may misunderstand our point all together. This can leave us frustrated and asking God what is going on with these people, but once again, it is a lesson in becoming more and more like Christ. Remember how Jesus was amazed so many times at the disciples for not understanding what He was saying, or when he’d use parables? He said “how can you understand the more important things of the kingdom and gain wisdom and deeper understanding if you can’t even get a simple little parable?” Ever been around a Christian like that? I know that I’ve had my share, but once again, here we go with learning humility, love and patience. Learning that we are going to be misunderstood as Jesus was. That we will face rejection and loneliness, like Jesus did. It’s all in becoming more like Christ. This too is why I am so grateful to God in giving me understanding and the gift of prayer. A friend recently read an excerpt of Charles Spurgeon where it said that God does not need our prayer, but He allows us to pray for us to learn to rely and trust in Him completely, and to grow us. I know for me, prayer has been an area where God teaches me in many areas of my personal and my spiritual life. It has also been a great comfort in times of loneliness of misunderstanding, and feeling like what is the point of all of this some days. It helps me to connect with God in the trinity and to be loved and reminded of what I am being taught by Him right now. So next time you feel misunderstood, unappreciated, or lonely know that you are growing in Christ-likeness, and that should change you whole mindset to a happiness of really understanding that “Wow, I really am becoming more like Christ, Cool!”.